Now I know what Grandpa Meant

((That is my mom in the white. She is with her brother and sister in this picture. My mom is the baby. She is just as sweet as she looks. ))

Bone weary....I used to hear my grandpa say that but never knew what it meant, tonight I know what it means. It's a deep seeded weariness, much more than being tired. I honestly wondered if I could make it through today. I just felt like I had given all I could give and there was nothing more there. Guess there was because I made it. I think I really just need a break, but our first 3 day weekend off isnt til Veteran's day which is still 3 weeks away. One of my team mates took off half day yesterday and then today to go visit family. Im the only one of the eight teachers in our grade that hasnt had a day off for something. Maybe I should just take a mental health day.

Been missing my family more than usual the last few days, I dont think that is so unusal, when Im stressed I just think of wanting to be home. I especially miss my mom at times like this, she and I were always close but after my divorce we got even closer. I miss just sitting on the front porch with her and talking about my day. Now there is no one to talk to about it. I guess that is why all of it comes out here. I miss having someone to talk to, there is no one here.

ok on to better things. I had my first administrative observation last week, we have 3 a year. Today I had the post observation meeting and she was very complimentary about my style and said that at this time she didnt even have any suggestions, so I guess that is a good thing.

Well Im tired so I think I will go to bed early tonight, sleep late tomorrow and then sleep some more. Seems to be all I want to do these days.